Dear Adam

Hi, it’s Mom. I’ been thinking about you a lot lately. You see I’m involved with this thing called Relay for Life. It’s a way that I can help find a cure for the reason you were so sick. I know we never told you why you felt so bad, but at 3 years old, we weren’t sure you would understand. Well anyway, I want to write about our experience but I need your help.

Do you remember when you, your brother and sister would fight so much that I would just sit on the floor and cry? You came over to me and said “don’t worry Mommy, we just love you.” I do. You were only 3 but you sounded so grown-up. It was you who taught me about love. Little did I know how deep a mother’s love goes until we went through what we did.

Do you remember when you head hurt so bad that you lay on the floor holding it? I do. It must of hurt really bad. I wish you could have explained it to me so I could have helped.

Do you remember being in the hospital when your head hurt? I do. You were really scared of everyone. I remember that I had to learn how to work all of the machines because you wouldn’t let the nurses near you, only mommy.

Do you remember how we used to lay in the hospital bed and watch movies? I do. Winnie the Pooh was our favorite. We would lie there for hours waiting for your daddy to come, remember?

Do you remember your favorite saying? I do. And we are still the only ones that know about it. Do you remember how I taught you to write your name for the first time? I do. We were in the playroom at the hospital and we wrote it on the chalkboard. You only had use of one arm then because the medicine hurt your left side. You wrote it so well, we showed everyone, and we were both so proud.

Do you remember the wagon we got for you? I do. We used to pull you around the hospital when the medicine made you fell bad. It was the only way we got you out of your room and the only ways you got to vista your brother and sister in the lobby.

Do you remember the nurses, the ones you finally liked? I do. Your first nurse had the Mickey Mouse watch that played music, remember? He name was Gada but you decided that her name should be Gadam. , like your name. And then there was, Lemar, he gave you a Batman figure for your birthday. And Julie, she was the only one you would stay with while I took a shower or got a cup of coffee.

Do you remember waiting for your daddy to come see us every night? I do. He would work all day back home, see your brother and sister, then come down to us. Most times he stayed all night and drove back in the morning.

Do you remember when you finally got to come home? I do. One time we went out to your preschool to see your teacher. You couldn’t walk because the medicine made you sick but we still had a good time.

Do you remember Goldie? I do. You kids talked your dad into keeping that cat. You were so happy to see her when you got home. She jumped right on you.

Do you remember MAMAW? I do. She loved you so much, I hope you are both together now.

Do you remember how much we loved you and still do? I do. Do you know how much we still miss you? I do.

Well thanks you for your help with my project. I didn’t think we could forget.

All my love,

Mom

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